Being Myself

Shoutbox!!!

2011-02-14T07:58:00.000-08:00

Hello2..

Punya lama x update blog nie.. Behabuk siap.. Gilakkk!!!!

Wei2, ni mo tanya kawan2 nie, shoutbox sblh nie buat hal la wei.. Banyak sangat spam message.. Huhuhu.. Semua duk promote pasal bisnes2 apa tah.. Saya student kimia and saya masih belajar malas fikir pasal bisnes..

- So far, FYP berjalan lancar and adalah 1 2 error yg berlaku tapi telahpun diperbaiki.. :)

- X sabar mo habis degree yang cap2 ayam nie.. Hehehe..

- Offer Msc suda ada, mo amik or x.. nanti la fikir2.. hehe..

- Offer kerja? mmm.. malas mo fikir kerja duluan la.. haha..

- Duit mo habis suda.. demmm.. :(

- I miss someone badly.. :(

p/s: pertolongan diperlukan berkenaan shoutbox!!!!

Happy New Year

2011-01-16T03:45:00.000-08:00

Hi!!!

Sorry my Green World a.k.a Being Myself.. I'm just giving you time to miss me.. :)

So many things happened to me in 2010. Sad and happy at the same time. 2011, new year, new commitment, new hope but same old me.. Old habit die hard peeps.

Back to December, Thesis + Oven terbakar (sample contaminated) + Christmas + Festival Tari Borneo + New year + dating2 = Memories. Memory is just a memory, what's left is me, myself and the world around me.

This new semester, hopefully I can do better than the 2 previous disastrous semesters. Not to blame anyone, but I learn my lessons and yes, that's life. Experience is the best teacher.

p/s: To someone, thanks to you, I am so happy that you come into my life. Love you! Hehe..

Want Vs Need

2010-12-23T05:54:00.000-08:00

Entri kali ni mo share pasal this one community yg dulu2 x exist pun, but then sejak2 masuk Y2K ni, this community makin lama makin membesar dan dorang2 ni x kesah pun expose diri dorang yg dorang2 ni belong to this community.

Saya x perlu bgtau siapa isi2 komuniti ini, tapi saya share apa isi2 dalam komuniti ni, BASED ON MY OBSERVATION. Jadi bila, sy observed, ini pendapat saya la kan.. :)

Komuniti ni ada mcm2 perangai.
1. Menggunakan org lain utk kesenangan diri sendiri.
2. Org lain suda tolong dorang2 nie bila dorang minta tlg, tapi dibelakang kita dia cakap yg kita terhegeh2 mo tlg dia, sbb kita ada 'purpose' lain.
3. Didepan dorang baik, diblakang tuhan saja yg tahu.
4. Sanggup meng-aibkan org lain semata2 mo dpt kepuasan nafsu duniawi.
5. Sanggup buat apa sahaja utk dptkan apa yg dia mau.

p/s: they want me but they don't need me

21/12/2010

2010-12-22T04:39:00.000-08:00

Merry christmas and happy new year 2011 in advance. Just landed KK yesterday and directly heading to UiTM KK. No one at home actually that I made this decision. All of them gone to Sarawak for weeding reception.

Enough with the introduction. Bla bla bla. This is a true story which I saw and I observed, and it's happening around me.

Frankly speaking, if you're single don't pretend that you're taken, vice versa. I saw loads of people that's in relationship, pretending that they still single and available, (sampai sanggup bersumpah pun ada tau). Why must they do this? And from my observations, one that is a kind person is always become the prey. Sebab terlampau baik sampai org pijak kepala kita. They 'use' their prey for their own good without further thinking the consequences this prey will face.

But, for the prey, they just being themselves, going with the flow and let God do the rest. They believe in karma, and the best they can do in the next future is to avoid from becoming a scrumptious prey of these predators.

To the people who belongs to any of these two groups, you know yourself better, you've been living up for double digit of years, you have your own belief, background, and religion, and I believe that you've been tought by your family how to life your live. Right mate?

So, my advice to all and myself, life is short, enjoy our life while we still can and be good to others.. Cheers.

It's been a while..

2010-12-17T05:44:00.000-08:00

Hello peeps..

It has been sometime I didn't update my lovey dovey blog. Kinda busy with my thesis. Done with the sampling (roots and soil) last Sunday. Next Monday, going back to lab and do the preservation of sample. Tuesday - Friday starts with the pre-treatment of the sample. All those drying, weighing, cleaning, grounding, sieving, milestone, discussion and meeting with supervisor is kinda tiring. I'm not complaining though. :)

As for now, I have just finished with the soil sample, and preserved it properly. Next semester will come back to lab to do the digestion and analysis. Hopefully will get a good result.

Tomorrow is my flight to KK, and kinda excited with it actually. Can't wait to meet my family and friends. It has been sometime I left KK and hopefully there is something new in KK since then. :)

Ok la.. Lapar.. Mo makan.. :))

Oh!! Thesis..

2010-12-09T06:29:00.000-08:00

Entri kali ni, saya ispiking london la k. Saja mo polish up my ispiking london. Lama suda x ispiking london. Haha. Bukan apa, abg ipar x faham bahasa malaysia tercinta. Jadi cuti sem nie, tinggal dgn kakak and abg ipar yg x faham BM, mau xmau kena spiking london la kan sbb mcm rude bah tu kan kalo org x faham apa yg kita cakap. Ok.. Sudah2.. Hahaha..

As usual, final semester is just around the corner. Last semester done with the proposal and everything gone well. My colleague and I are going to do sampling for our final year project (FYP) or some called it THESIS. and we are doing on biomonitoring of pollutants (Heavy Metal).

This coming weekend I am going to take root and soil sample while my friend will do on tree bark and leaves. Our sampling is in Langkawi (I want to do this in Sabah, but then, the pre-treatment step won't allowed me to do so,) and it's best that I just do the sampling in Langkawi.

These few days back, we are preparing all the things needed for this sampling, and yes, there are some problems came up but at the end of the day, all those problems are settled. Tomorrow is the final briefing on this sampling, and hopefully everything goes as planned.

p/s: nda sabar balik Sabah bah ni actually.. :)

ChatBox

2010-12-08T07:13:00.000-08:00

Ini cerita pasal CHAT. Dulu2 aktif chatting di MIRc. Masih ingat lagi nie, time tu di rumah manada streamyx broadband. Dial Up jak masa tu and guna provider Jaring. Haha.. So monthly bill mmg 2 3 ratus la tu.

Tertarik sama yg cantik2 pnya words tu, sy terkenal sama saturang chatters, so dia suruh donlod script la (atau bahasa mirc nya SC).. So bila suda donlod, tiba2 mcm ada org kick saya nie, pastu, secara otomatiknya script saya tu masuk balik and kick tu manusia yg kick saya.. and berterusan la tu benda. First time guna, and kira menang la bh tu kan sbb trus dapat banned tu manusia.

Sekali ada one time tu, saja kunun saya mo pg kick org, trus dia ada script jgk mungkin, flood ni trus tu channel, still remember #anaksabah pnya channel.. haha.. tiba2 monitor saya gelap, trus keluar asap dari CPU.. Hahaha.. dari sana, malas suda script2 nie.. add-on jak trus nie..

actually, apa yg sy mo sampaikan adalah, saya telah membuang chatbox sebelum nie dan telah mengantikan nya dengan ShoutMix..

Alang2 mo post kasi la cerita2 skit pasal MIRC duluuuuuu2 tu..

p/s: gmbr sumber google.. :)

Khas utk Wasaber

2010-12-08T01:57:00.000-08:00

Brrrrr... Brrrrr...

Itu intro utk kwn2 wasaber sbb bila sebut jak wasaber, trus sambung tu ayat di atas mcm siuk plak kan.. :) meh try satu kali... wasaber brrrr brrrr (buat sambil geleng2 tu kepala lagi bestttt.. hahahaha)

Ok.. Stop the crap!! Ni entri tuk wasaber bkn entri suka2 hati.. :)

1. Terima kasih kepada admin wasaber sebab accept registration form saya..
2. Terima kasih sbb kasi post link blog saya di wall Wasaber (walaupun ni blog cikai2 cap ayam jak nie)..
3. Terima kasih sbb bertambah follower saya.. Tekejut my heart ni betambah follower.. Walaupun sikit still bersyukur jgk.. :)
4. Terima kasih sbb traffic sy pun up2 skit sd tu.. :)
5. Adrenalin mo menulis lps mgkn akan upgrade sd kali tu.. :)
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10. Terima kasih banyak2 wasaber..

bisik-bisik: brrrrrr... brrrr...

It's done!!

2010-12-03T03:27:00.000-08:00

My first lyric is done.. Though it's an amateur recording, but I like it so much. Thanks to muiz for "sponsoring" me his voice and helped me with this song.

There you go.. Please do not hesitate to comment.. Hehe..

Sejarah

2010-11-25T23:04:00.000-08:00

Hari ini entri dalam BM sebab ada berkaitan dengan mata pelajaran Sejarah. Haha. Semalam dan hari ini lebih kepada memberi pendapat tentang keadaan sebenar dunia masa kini. Entri sebelum ini tentang negeri asal saya sendiri dan entri kali ini tentang universiti yg saya sayangi dan selalu dihati. IPTA Dihatiku.. :)

Baru-baru ini, yang berbahagia NC mengumumkan Kepujian Sejarah adalah syarat baru untuk masuk ke IPTA ini. Artikel boleh didapato di sini dan sini. Setelah meng-google-kan diri ini apakah maksud kepujian ini (BM dulu time SPM pun x dpt A, google pun x jumpa), jadi secara otomatik saya menganggap bahawa kepujian itu adalah Credit (betulkan jika saya salah).

Bukan tidak bersetuju (tidak sama sekali), tapi mungkin memerlukan sedikit penambah-baikan bagi syarat ini. Dan semestinya, ini adalah cadangan semata-mata. Ambik yang jernih, buang yang keruh. Jika syarat ini diadaptasi dahulu, sekarang ini saya bukanlah pelajar IPTA ini. Kenapa? Terang dan nyata sebabnya. Itu kalau diadaptasi dahulu. :)

Cadangan saya, syarat ini tidak semestinya wajib kerana tidak semua golongan bumiputera diluar sana adalah bijak pandai apatah lagi mereka yang berada diluar bandar atau pedalaman. Golongan-golongan inilah yang sepatutnya diberikan peluang untuk berada di IPT tetapi dengan syarat kelayakan baru ini, saya rasa majoriti golongan-golongan ini tidak mampu bersaing dengan golongan bumiputera yang berada di kawasan urban.

Apa kata kita terima sahaja pelajar-pelajar yang ini (yg x perform sejarah), tetapi apabila diterima masuk ke IPTA ini, mereka ini diwajibkan mengambil satu subjek khas (subjek sejarah la.. apa lagi). Sekiranya kekurangan tenaga pengajar didalam subjek ini, tidak mengapa, kerana kita secara tidak langsung telah membuka peluang pekerjaan kepada bumiputera yang lain (win-win situation?? hehe).

Kepada wakil2 pelajar di IPTA ini, saya rasa, anda dan anda dan anda adalah badan yang paling sesuai untuk mengutarakan cadangan saya ini. Diulangi, INI ADALAH CADANGAN SEMATA-MATA.. (takut lak kena ngan Akta 174.. Hoho)

p/s: saya sayang UiTM Sabah lebih.. :)

Unsafe

2010-11-25T10:53:00.000-08:00

Sabah is one of the state in Malaysia. Being the second largest state after Sarawak, Sabah divided into 24 districts which population2.5M (2000) and 3.4M (as in 2007). The largest indigenous tribe in Sabah is the Kadazan-Dusun (18%) followed by Bajau (17%) and others. Bla bla bla bla...

Enough with the intro. What I want to say is that, when I think about Sabah, I suddenly felt unsafe. Looking at the population of the aliens at the moment, I was thinking, what would happen to Sabah in 10 years time? I don't have any problem with these aliens, but I do have problem with them when it comes to safety of my people, our people out there. Honestly speaking, everyday without failed, there are always crimes they committed. For instance, looking at Jesselton itself, everyday police receives reports on rapes, thefts etc. Not to mention drug-addicts and murder. (correct me if i'm wrong).

I know because I've been in the situation (government body), where everyday we receive reports on rape and murder. Who commit the crimes? Aliens! Who's the victim? Our people! My people! The locals! Who to blame? I do have the idea but I can't say it and I don't want to say it. You can think and you know who should be blame.

What worsen the situation is that these aliens reproduce faster than the locals and the amount is HUGE. One single reason. While the locals gone to work, these aliens also "working". They reproduce as the speed of light and these product is obvious at Jesselton Market. They bring along their "oxygen" plastic compacted with "glue" in it. Oh, what a "life"!! When they reach a "matured" stage where they can reproduce, they start a new cycle of reproduction and the cycles goes on and on. They reproduce themselves in a good way (for them) and at the same time in unlawful way with the locals. Who to blame? You have many options.

I can see "some" effort done by the local authorities. Oh well, send them back to their country (I don't have to mention their countries, you named it!!), and after a year or two, surprisingly, the same face back here in Malaysia (Darn it! Sabah). I ever heard the MP's mentioned this issue at the state government assembly, but until now, what is the best solution? The population of these aliens are increasing, not decreasing. Maybe there are some political issues or personal interest behind this, but the safety of the locals are more important right? The locals is the one who will vote in the election, not these aliens right? Oh maybe, they are in?Oh no, please tell me, i'm totally wrong!

Please think and speak out your voice. We are the majority, we own this land and we have the rights to feel safe in our own place. Our vote is our voice. Be heard!!

P/s: Any EU country that offer nationality, I'll be the first to grab it.. (all pictures courtesy to google)

Song of the Day

2010-11-24T22:23:00.000-08:00

Dear You..

2010-11-23T07:03:00.000-08:00

Saya x marah pun la..
Saya touched sikit2 saja..
Kalo mo end this pun, it takes time jgk kan..
It has been 5 years this so called in-knowing-each-other relationship..
Bukan sekejap kan tu..
I know, I am the one who started this, and I'm the one who should end this..
But,
Things changed this 3 4 days..
You joke around, but at the same time, you are trying to tell something.
Maybe, me myself accept it as a jokes, but that's not you're intended to.
If you really want to end up this, I hope both of us have no single regret about this.

We know our barrier that divides us.
We can do nothing about it. To be specific, I can't do anything about it.

Also, I not the type that, when I broke up with someone, we are enemy. No, I'm not. I still want to be friend with them unless I hate that person, then that is different story.

I know you reading this, or you will read this soon or maybe later.
No need to worry about me, I'll be fine. You should be fine too.
Whatever it is, we still friends. That's for sure.

Loads of love..

Ticket

2010-11-23T06:37:00.001-08:00

Finally, my ticket going back to KK for this coming Christmas is confirmed. Hehe..

Cant wait to go back to KK this coming Christmas. I'll be home for Christmas!!!

My First Lyric

2010-11-21T20:32:00.000-08:00

Someone close to me used to tell me,
when I met the right person,
I would instantly know that
she is THE ONE..

chorus:
I always knew she is the one
I always knew since we first met
No other can replace her
I knew she is the one

someone close to me used to tell me,
when I first got to kiss her,
by magic I knew that
she is THE ONE..

someone close to me used to tell me,
when you have met the right person,
you should hold on tight because
she is THE ONE!

Semester Break

2010-11-18T19:55:00.000-08:00

This semester break started a week ago, and I just can't wait to go back to KK, my hometown. But before going back to KK, sampling and pre-treatment of my thesis needs to be done first. If there is time left, need to digest the sample also, then i can go back to KK with a smile, joy and happiness.

Talking about the previous final examination, I should say that my performance is below average. I don't know what is happening to me but I did my best I guess, though it is not my very best performance. No regret, life must go on.

This coming December, to be specific first week of December, I need to go to campus to prepare all my material for sampling. Hopefully, all is going as planned. Yeah!!

Award

2010-11-10T02:46:00.000-08:00

receive award from cak (~~sejak bila nama ko sarepdol??~~). It's a smile award. I don't know what to do actually, but just like him, I'll follow the sequence.. (~~x cool langsung kan cak.. haha..~~)

5 Pandangan Tentang Blog Dia nih:

Makin hari makin upgrade.. (~~bila mo tukar p .com~~)
entri dia cambest juga.. :)
~~xda link tuk blog sy di blog dia.. haha..~~
background dia mcm flag british pun ada jgk.. :)
tidak sabar tunggu dia tukar domain pg .com... :p

5 Aktiviti Semasa Pulang Ke Kampung:

first skali, saya tidak pulang kampung cuti nie.. thesis needs to be done.. will go to Langkawi to do sampling, go back to lab for pretreatment, digestion and analysis.
Kalo balik kg biasanya, duduk dirumah and keluar sama kawan2 n kazen2..
biasa tido dalam jam 4 5 pagi then bangun time lunch suda.. haha..
biasa ikut abg juga pg kerja, since dia freelancer kan..
kalo keluar dgn kawan2, msti cinema, boling, karaoke, etc.. kalo sama kazen2, ahaks.. tpt haram a.k.a setan bertapa.. :))

Pastu nak bagi award nih dengan::

siapa2 yg mo wat.. haha..

Bonded

2010-11-07T08:57:00.000-08:00

This is just my opinion.. But what I see students nowadays is they're having this symptoms called "fear" and "worried". Why? Fear and worried about GRADES! I like this line in 3 idiots, "Grades divide the students". It is obvious that grades are important nowadays, but why these two evils become the barrier for us to enjoy our student life. Personally, student life and working life is two different things and we shouldn't sacrifice our student life just because of this barrier.

One may wants to know, how to get rid of these two evils. Easy saying, confidence is all we need. In order to gain the confidence, everyone have their own way to obtain it. Proper technique in studying and preparing before exam is another technique to develop confident level. Some genius students don't even need this for sure. They are gifted and born smart.

But whatever it is, what I am trying to say is that, never ever fear or worried about examinations. I'll keep on reminding myself that, it's all about learning not scoring, though scoring is a good bonus! (Sis Len, 2009). Result is just a ticket to interview, and what matter after that is your soft skills. Everyone has equal chances of getting job after graduating. Everyone has their own fate.

Student life = Mahal

2010-11-03T02:48:00.000-07:00

I can say that my student life is very valuable and expensive. When I was in diploma, (i think i posted it here, but just to recall back), i experienced studying in the cabin, walking from one places to other places (no shuttle bus) to go to class, go sports complex using DPIM trail from fasa 3, and we are going to the lab which is located in the unsafe building. Yes, we succeed.

Now, doing my BSc Applied Chem in Arau, two days non-stop raining led to flood. Stucked here and this place suddenly become The Great Island Of Arau. Food stock can only sustain for another two days and there is no way we can go out from here (i have a stock of biscuits and instant noodle, that will work). Hopefully everything going back to normal in 2 3 days time. Amen.

Thanked God for such experience He had given me.

25 facts of mine

2010-11-02T07:40:00.000-07:00

Lama suda x tagged2 nie.. hehe.. Today been tagged by cak.. This tagged asked me to tell the world 25 facts about i don't know what.. but according to cak, he wrote down 25 facts of him.. i follow u cak.. :)

1. Franky (nama ic)

2. Nama kampung: boykici

3. Suka men game.

4. Anak bongsu

5. Dulu amik Diploma Sains

6. Ada stpm jgk..

7. Dulu skolah menengah budak2 nakal a.k.a SMK Bahang

8. Layan semua jenis sukan kecuali renang and takraw.

9. Kadazan + Murut

10. Lahir di Bingkul Beaufort

11. 73kg

12. 175cm

13. Bsc Applied Chemistry

14. Arau Perlis

15. Tinggal di Papar

16. Currently in the process of knowing each other

17. Ada celcom n maxis

18. Suka dgr red.fm 10pm-1am

19. Addicted to CSI Miami

20. Green in my Heart

21. Pernah patah tulang di bahu

22. Miss DELL (lappy kunun nie)

23. Ssh mo benci org, tapi once suda benci, kirim salam dunia.

24. Mummy boy!!!

25. Boros... Ahaks..

tagged? mmm.. siapa2 la yg mo buat.. hehehe..

Speechless

2010-11-02T02:57:00.000-07:00

Today, u text me. Yes, hoping something good going to happen. Maybe not in a relationship like last time, but at least to become a friend.

But what I get is all those swears and disrespect words from you. If your comeback just to give me all those words, you're please to do so.. Maybe you enjoyed yourself doing this to me, all I can do is to accept it as a compliment.

You always says that, you love me, you miss me, you this, you that, bla bla bla bla.. Take and keep it for the one who you think will deserved it.. I don't deserved it at all.. Hehe..

Just leave me alone and let me enjoy with my life now.. Whatever happen, life must go on.. Hehe..

Dugaan

2010-11-01T19:39:00.000-07:00

Perlis banjir dan Arau telah menjadi sebuah kepulauan.. Stucked di tengah2 and tiada tpt yg boleh pergi. Dari semalam semua org sedang sibuk membeli belah di "Tesco" Arau. (Tesco = Pasaraya Taman Sri Wang). Pagi ni, bekalan air plak di catu. Perghh.. Harap bekalan elektrik diteruskan.

Sebelum tido semalam, ada baca status kwn di fb. Empangan Timah Tasoh terpaksa di buka sbb air dh naik. Kalo x, mesti la empangan tu pecah kan, lagi naya. So, akibat dari pelepasan air tu, dijangka, kawasan Kangar dan kawasan2 sekitar ni, air akan naik dalam 1-2 Meter. Mak aii.. Mcm tinggi sy suda tu tau.. Arau jugak merupakan kawasan yg terkena dgn pelepasan air nie..

Tadi sempat pg tpt kami (saya, duwe n mal) bermain. Semalam air sampai buku lali ja.. Tadi?? Sampai lutut suda lor.. Scary jugak.. Try pg cari breakfast tapi harapanku musnah.. Huhu.. Semua kedai tutup, ada yg buka tapi dh habis lor.. Haish2.. Agak kelaparan disitu tapi apakan daya..

Harap2, dalam masa dua tiga hari ni, semuanya akan back to normal. Gambar2 tuk kebanjiran akan di update nanti.. Izmal sdg menjadi photographer "profesional" di sekitar arau..

Kawan2 yg ada final exam tu, banyakkan bersabar.. Harap2 ada hikmah disebalik semua ni..

Keep on counting

2010-10-31T22:26:00.000-07:00

Most of my friends keep on counting to go back to their hometown. Me? Nope.. Never crossed my mind. Becoming a final semester students, i'm looking forward to finish my FYP. Going to do sampling this coming December, hopefully everything is going as planned and yes, hopefully will get the desired result.

Last night managed to watch movie (3 Idiots). One of the greatest movie I ever watched. I like the storyline, the motivational impact, the friendship of theirs and the songs for sure. This story actually touched and reminds me of my best friends back in school. We're the most wanted in our school. If you talk about, escape from school without being caught, we have PhD on that. I really missed school. Demmit..

To all my friends, all the best in your final examinations, and please take a good care of yourself on your way back to hometown. These days, so many unwanted things happened. Please take a good care of yourself.

p/s: Missing KK.. :'(

Ko datang lagi??

2010-10-28T08:06:00.000-07:00

hey you.. get out of my life.. shu shu shu..
this goes to you..

after all the things you put me through
ooh still i come right back
but now i know the truth
i can finally see
you only want me when you're lonely (lonely)
if i say i'm gonna leave
that's the only time you want me (want me)
next time you need me there i won't make it
another late night call i won't take it
cos now i finally see
you only want me when you're lonely

How to love?

2010-10-23T20:06:00.000-07:00

People might ask, how to love someone that we love. Some say, it's easy as A B C or 1 2 3. Some say being yourself is the best way to love your love one. Other say, just go with the flow. Which is yours?

(careful!!! ini adalah entri poyo @ minta puji!!! hahaha)

Now I realized, it's easy to love me. Cook or provide me something delicious, and surely I'll fall in love with you. I like to eat, and yes so far, there are 2 3 persons who knows how to cook excellently.. Muahaha.. Yg org Keningau tu paling pandai sekali memasak.. Hahaha..

bisik-bisik: cukuplah.. malas mo puji2 org.. Hahaha..

As expected

2010-10-23T03:24:00.000-07:00

Just finished for the presentation for our proposal FYP.

Questions asked are as expected. "What do you expect your result will be?", "Why microwave digestion? Why not any other method?" My supervisor have been asking me this questions all these while and thanks to Mr Lias for keep on reminding me.

After finish presenting my proposal, I managed to go other LT to look my other friends presenting. LT2 is quite entertaining and interesting. The supervisors "fighting" themselves, backing up their "children" while the "children" standing in front, doing nothing, hearing or maybe listening to their supervisors arguing each other. This is all learning process and I think I learn a lot from this.

It opens my mind that in the analysis of chemistry, you can go for environmental, natural product, scientific research, organic vs inorganic, chemical technology as well as physical chemistry. For me myself, I am doing on inorganic + environment.

I can see loads of work needs to be done this December and hopefully, everything goes well.

Bisik-bisik: Panel saja testing kita, whether kita ada wat homework or tidak.. kan3??

Learning process

2010-10-21T20:11:00.000-07:00

This coming final examination suddenly reminds me of my diploma life when I was in KK. There are hard times we are facing, but I enjoyed my life though.

In the middle of my 2nd or 3rd semester, our main academic building cracked here and there. This is the turning point where the operation of the main academic building (Block A-E) must be stopped and all the classes are re-schedule.

I still remember my classes are in the "container", "bangunan yg x siap" and "rumah staff". Sometimes shuttle buses are not available, and you have to walk from Fasa 3 to Gym (now sports complex) using the DPIM trail (laluan famous). After class, you need to take the same route to go back to Cluster. And yes, fast track is built and all the non-science program clustered here. For us, we still need to to go to lab, without knowing the risk that may arise (did i mention that our lab is located at Block A??!!). Thank god i'm still alive.

There are times, shortage of water supply at cluster may also arise. Haha. The best part is that, this is very genuine excuse for not attending a lecture. Guess what, it works!!! LOL...

So, I am asking myself, if we experienced hard times, and we still can succeed, now that all the accommodation is complete, they should succeed too, right?

bisik-bisik: Missing the life there.. :'(

Ikhlas

2010-10-20T13:16:00.000-07:00

Bukan nak cakap apa.. Tapi bila dorang ni start cakap pasal ikhlas tak ikhlas, jujur tak jujur, mcm mana kita nak nilai benda yang subjektif mcm nie?

Ada alat or mesin ka yang boleh ukur sejauh mana keikhlasan dan kejujuran kita pada satu benda tu atau benda yang kita buat..

Benda subjektif macam ni jangan la kita persoalkan, ini between kita dgn our Creator.. senang cerita..

Lagi satu, kalo time duk hangat bercintan cintun tu, yours is mine, mine is yours.. bila dh berpecah belah, putus memutus, retak seribu sejuta, yours is mine, mine is mine?? yes.. frankly speaking, itu rezeki masing-masing.. again, this is between you and our Creator.. if your intention is to become a gold digger, then you're

bisik-bisik: ko tu ikhlas n jujur sgt eh?? mmm.. mai habaq kt ceq.. :)

Get well soon

2010-10-17T18:27:00.000-07:00

It is kinda weird that there no status updated at your Facebook profile. I texted and called you but I haven't get any reply from you.

Last Friday, I texted you, "sombong jugak.." and finally you replied me. Your text really shocked me, and I really don't know what to do. "Frank, saya di wad nie.." OMG.. What happen to you dear Ninie?? I text you again, then I know the story behind all this.

I still remember I called you, while at the same time, I was at the futsal centre. You told me "ko sengsara" with all the wires around your body and you lost your appetite. You can still jokes and laugh with me though I know you suffering down there. I am sorry that I scold you when you told me, you've undergone three times x-ray within 2 days.. Dear, normal people can only go for X-ray examination twice in a year, which means once in every six months (correct me if i'm wrong).

Last night BB text me that you called her. She can't understand what are you saying and she cried out loud and honestly I cannot see people crying. She asked me to pray rosary for you, and yes I did, hoping that nothing bad happen to you down there.

We know our story and I'll keep it though sometimes it's hard for me to accept the fact that we ................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

Lastly, please be strong dear Ninie. We promised to meet each other when I go back to KK and we can make it happen. I know we will always.. Be strong dear friend..

To all my friends, please pray for her so that nothing bad happen to her. Thanks..

bisik-bisik: I miss chatting and joking with you.. :'(

Imaginasi 3

2010-10-16T02:08:00.000-07:00

Status di Facebook hari ini mengatakan, anda berjalan bersama-sama teman-teman anda. Anda sangat gembira bersama rakan-rakanmu dan yang pasti, aku ingin melihat senyuman itu dengan lebih lama.

Ia umpama dadah yang mengalir dalam darah dan jika dos dadah itu kurang, hidup ini serba tak menentu. Begitu hebat penangan senyuman mu padaku, walaupun baru sekali ku lihat senyuman itu.

Hari ini, aku berjanji, jika diberikan kesempatan, akanku memberanikan diri untuk berbual mesra untuk mengenali mu. Tak kenal maka tak cinta.. Bukan begitu?

Aku terus menunggu and menjadi stalker di Facebook kamu.. Itu yang pasti..

bisik-bisik: imaginasi semakin menjadi2..

Imaginasi 2

2010-10-15T18:16:00.000-07:00

Selepas pertemuan semalam, aku terus melayari Facebook kerana itulah lumrah kehidupanku. Tidak kusangka, ku terlihat kamu di alam social networking. Aku tanpa segan silu terus menekan link "add as friend" dan tidak lama selepas itu, friend request itu diterima.

Kita langsung tidak mempunyai mutual friend. Tapi, aku tidak peduli semua itu. Seperti biasa, aku akan jadi stalker. Gambar-gambarmu menjadi mangsa proses itu. Aku terus menekan butang next dan apabila sampai ke satu gambar, aku terkedu seketika. Nafas aku berhenti seketika. Aku baru sahaja melihat senyuman ini. Senyuman manis dengan mata sedikit sepet.

Save or not to save? Tidak sama sekali.

Seperti biasa, aku lihat chatbox, tapi namamu langsung tidak kelihatan. Ya, aku suka akan cabaran. Ini cabaran untuk aku untuk mengenali mu. 10 minit berlalu menjadi stalker, aku close window untuk page kau, dan aku tersenyum sendiri. Apakah semua ini?

bisik-bisik: juga imaginasi semata-mata.. :)

Imaginasi 1

2010-10-15T11:23:00.000-07:00

Hari ini, aku bertemu denganmu di satu tempat yang selalu aku lawati. Kau bersama-sama dengan temanmu, dan aku bersama teman-temanku.

Dipertemuan itu, kita hanya berbalas senyuman. Bertegur sapa pun tidak, apatah lagi bersalaman, satu perkara yang sangat mustahil.

Walaupun kita hanya berbalas senyuman, bagi aku itu adalah satu semangat untuk aku terus hidup. Senyumanmu tidak ternilai bagiku.

Ku harap kau juga sama, merasakan apa yang aku rasakan, dikala kita berbalas senyuman, walaupun aku tahu, kita ibarat langit dan bumi.

Bagiku, kau terlalu sempurna untukku. Aku tidak layak untukmu, tetapi jika diri ini diberikan peluang untuk bertakhta dihatimu, aku tak ingin berjanji, tapi aku mencuba sedaya upaya menjagamu..

bisik-bisik: imaginasi semata-mata.. :p

Ada Batasnya

2010-10-14T04:23:00.000-07:00

Kesabaran juga ada batasnya..
Pernahkah kau terfikir..

Ada ramai yang menunggu di luar sana..

Tapi kenapa aku sanggup menunggumu..

Kesabaran juga ada batasnya..

Ku lihat kau mesra dengan kawan-kawanmu..

Ku cuba sedaya upaya untuk kembali seperti dahulu..

Tapi ku diabaikan..

Kesabaran juga ada batasnya..

Ku harap jika ku pergi..

Kau juga bahagia bersama yang lain..

Tapi aku tahu, aku tak sanggup..

bisik-bisik: ada siapa2 nk beli lirik lagu ni x?? :)

Recovering

2010-10-10T16:53:00.000-07:00

Yes!! If you don't have your special one, you still have your family and friends to be there for you..
Life is short.. Why choose sadness.. I know it's my mistakes, but have you ever try to understand the real situation I am facing? If you do, well, thank you.

Honestly, it never came across my mind that it would be this hard. Bak kata dai, lepak la Datuk.. Yups.. Lepak ja kan.. Dai mmg penasihat a.k.a puan sri yg sgt2 la menikam.. Dia tegur ko sangat2 la tajam.. If u ever consult her, u know what I mean.. (sorry dai, nama ko nek plak.. hehehe)

Ok la.. This recovering process require me a lot of strength physically and mentally.. I know I can do this, I always do..

p/s: There something about love that breaks your heart, why fall in love??

Kau dihatiku

2010-10-09T17:47:00.000-07:00

Walaupun marah, tapi, sayang ttp ada.. It's not an easy task to forget you just like that.. But then, after what happened, I learn my lessons..

Loved the person who loved you, not the one you loved..

Spring Cleaning

2010-10-09T04:42:00.000-07:00

Do some spring cleaning on my friendlists in FB.. Almost 200 of them are cleaned out.
Kerana nila setitik, rosak susu sebelanga..

Bye for now..

The End

2010-10-08T09:24:00.000-07:00

Yes.. It's time..

Sorry for everything..

Social Life

2010-10-08T05:07:00.000-07:00

Facebook is not a place for me to socialize anymore. I don't know why, but personally, I don't find it interesting anymore.

Speaking about love, what can u define love?

According to David Archuletta, there's something bout love that breaks your heart. Why fall in love?
Let's see what JB says, U smile, I smile.. Cause whenever you smile, I smile.. U sad, I sad? LOL..
Shontelle says, I remember years ago, someone told me I should take caution when it comes to love. Did she? All her hope is impossible..

Sometimes it's kinda painful when it comes to love, but, everything happened for a reason. It's your fate. By hook or by crook, we need to face it. It is a lesson to learn.

To love someone is not about to become a person that is not you. Just be yourself and someday, somehow, someone will come to your life and appreciate you.

Field trip + Assignment + Proposal + Test + Final Exam

2010-10-02T20:43:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry my blog.. It has been sometime I didn't update you..

This week, from Tuesday to Friday, the final year students are going to field trip to MPOB, Beryl's and Air Hitam Sanitary Landfill in Selangor area. I enjoyed the field trip with my friends but then, I'm not very satisfied with the input actually especially when we visited Beryl's factory. We go there to earn something, but at the end of the day, it's a total waste. They only "market" their products and we gain nothing in return. MPOB and AHSL gives me something at least, even though i expected more from them especially the new technologies, but they only shared with us the current technology that is used.

During this field trip, I admit that, a lot of work are delayed. Assignment on food chemistry especially. Credit to Elizabeth Elaine a.k.a Bebet and Elda Konsaga for the ID and Pass for UKM-Jaring. If not, I will not be able to surf the internet and find the information about that particular assignment. Not forgotten, to my housemate Izmal because he is the one who submitted my assignment. I actually do it in UKM and email to him here in Arau, printed it out and sent it it to our lecturer office.

Proposal!!!! Yes.. Need to do a little bit of changes in my proposal, because I'm not really satisfied with current method that I proposed. Ahaks.. The more you read, the more you want to add, and the more complicated is your proposal. "Biomonitoring of heavy metal near cement plant". Simple but complicated and loads need to be studied.

Approaching final exam, as usual, all the lecturers are forcing us to sit our last test. Just finished test for Air Pollution and hopefully the outcome is satisfying.

My schedule for this final exam is quite okay for me because the time given to us to cover all the chapter is enough I guess. Even though the gap between the paper is quite close, but then I think we can manage our time wisely. Oh, forget to mention, students in Shah Alam is trying hard to re-arrange the schedule. Best of luck there.

bisik-bisik: saya rindu kamuu..

FB

2010-09-21T23:03:00.001-07:00

Deactivated.. Cheerss..

Hopeless

2010-09-21T08:31:00.000-07:00

I don't know what to write..
Too much in my mind, but don't have the strength to do those typing..

Raya Holiday + Thesis

2010-09-02T01:15:00.000-07:00

Thank god that my proposal is nearly done and hopefully after this coming raya holiday, I don't have to think more on thesis because right after this raya holiday, study week and final examination is just around the corner.

My proposal entitled "Bio-monitoring of Heavy Metal near Teluk Ewa cement powerplant" and the sample that will be taken are soil and root of plants. To date, the introduction - methodology is done and only the scheme of work is pending. All the chemicals needed is ready to be ordered and hopefully, by end of this year, all the material is ready to be used.

This coming raya also, I manage to go back to KK since end of this year, my supervisor won't allowed me to go back to KK if I don't finish analyze all the sample. Well, it's normal where sometimes we need to sacrifice and it is normal also for me not to celebrate Xmas at home because I experienced it many times before this and I should be fine with it.

Hopefully when I'm in KK soon, I'll enjoy myself to the max with family and friends. Not to forget, I'm going back to Kg. Kokos LD.. Waa.. Can't wait for the foods there.. Hehe..

p/s: Selamat Hari Raya to all my muslim friends.

We are okay right?

2010-08-30T06:27:00.000-07:00

Yes we are going to be alright. You told me now that u can admit all that i've said. Thanks to you for understanding and kalau ada jodoh, tidak ke mana juga pun kan. (ayat dulu2 ja nie.. padahal sendiri sakit hati)

Having small reunion this saturday and hopefully all my friends can come. Oh, this is my STPM mate.. Most of them are now working, and only me studying still..

I'm Here Again

2010-08-26T08:26:00.000-07:00

Be back in Langkawi.. This time, my mission is to go to my sampling site for my FYP. It has been sometime I didn't update my blog. Internet connection at home is down due to power cut (according to TM 100) and to date, it has not been fix by them. It has been 3 days, and I don't know when the connection is going to be back to normal.

Can't wait to go back to KK this coming raya.. All my friend, see you there..

p/s: FYP pun kena wat jgk.. huhu..

Total beginner!!

2010-08-22T02:18:00.000-07:00

A total beginner in photography. Need extra time to do all those editing and shooting. Whoa..

Counting

2010-08-20T05:27:00.000-07:00

Can't wait to go back to KK. Looking forward to visit all my friends house during this coming raya. I don't have any plan yet, where and which houses to go. Even some of my friends invited me to their house, but I'm was thinking of going back to Kg. Kokos Lahad Datu to my Family Angkat house. It has been sometime I haven't go to that kg. I miss them so much especially the foods. OMG..

Thanks to MAS for having that cheap ticket and I am able to go back to kk and spend some time with my friends and family because I know, this coming semester break in December, I don't think I am able to go back because, as my supervisor told me, don't ever think of going back home, not until you have done your final year project.. Oh no.. Please no..

p/s: bleh p beraya di rumah ko ka?? dakat ja bha tu kan??

From Arau With Love

2010-08-15T15:54:00.000-07:00

Maaf kutelah menyakitimu

Kutelah kecewakanmu

Bahkan kusia-siakan hidupku

Dan kubawa kau s'perti diriku

Walau hati ini t'rus menangis

Menahan kesakitan ini

Tapi kulakukan semua demi cinta

Akhirnya juga harus kurelakan

Kehilangan cinta sejatiku

Segalanya t'lah kuberikan

Juga semua kekuranganku

Jika memang ini yang terbaik

Untuk diriku dan dirinya

Kan kut'rima semua demi cinta

[chorus]

Jujur aku tak kuasa

Saat terakhir kugenggam tanganmu

Namun yang pasti terjadi

Kita mungkin tak bersama lagi

Bila nanti esok hari

Kutemukan dirimu bahagia

Izinkan aku titipkan

Kisah cinta kita selamanya

Journey to Happiness

2010-08-11T16:23:00.000-07:00

Sorry to myself for the late update.

Last weekend, I have the chance to go to Shah Alam to meet my friends. All of them are my diploma friends and loads of memories between us.

1. Have the chance to go for the mini reunion. Why mini? Because not all of us are there. Some of them have their own commitment and I understand that they are quite busy with their life. But, thanks to all that did come that day even though something terrible happened right. Thanks to Dai, Nizam, Syikin, Diyane, Ramlah, Nurul Shairah, Gab, Jumar, Usman, Ivy, Syura, Mary, Fravira and Jane. Appreciate it so much..

2. Have the chance to watch Malaysian Dance Village at DSB UiTM Malaysia. UiTM Sabah (my diploma!!! missing the memory there) won the competition and I was there with them. Happy to be there and watched them win. Congratulations to UiTM Sabah.. :)

3. Meet my gaming friends. It has been sometime we didn't play together. Seeing them playing really heal me when we were in diploma last time. No matter what happen, DOTA is our life. I still remember during study week, we play DOTA from 6pm to 6am in the next morning. Huh!! Heavy DOTA.. We still succeed though..

bisik-bisik: sorry kamu..

Am I Happy?

2010-08-04T00:10:00.000-07:00

So far so good. I have my family who always there by my side when I need them. Back to Arau a month ago, what do you expect if it's not boredom.

But

Having my classmates especially Ecah x 2, Bella, Cager, Mal, Akma and the rest as well, I do enjoy with them. We joke and laugh together. It "heals" me though, in fact it "heals" us I guess.

Having my after class/football/futsal friends especially Ed, Ustat, Apiz, Jaed and the rest as well, really makes me happy. Being accepted by them (~~ya ka accepted?? haha~~), jokes and laughter is always there for us.

Even some of my friends are far far away from me, my ex-classmates, my ex-team, all my close friends and the rest in, you guys don't have to worry, you'll always on my mind.

- Yes, I'm Happy..

Touched

2010-08-03T17:20:00.000-07:00

Yesterday, we (mat ed, ustat, jaed n me) went out to have our dinner. Topic of the day is blogging. Suddenly I realized that when ed asked me this question..

"Hg x tulis blog bila hg happy?"

There you go. Yes I realized that when I'm happy, there is no entry about it. But, when in trouble, I can write 2 3 entries in a day. What does it mean? My blog is only for when I'm in trouble? Big NO..

I think, when I am happy, I just enjoy that moment because I know, we have ups and downs in life. So why not appreciate it while we still can. Till then.. Tadaaa..

- going to post something tonight.. :)

Not Again

2010-07-30T12:11:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry if I hurt you again.

I didn't mean to hurt you.

Everyday I feel like texting you but, I don't have the strength.

I know you're busy with your life and "work".

You have other "commitment" that makes me don't want to disturb you.

Plus, you haven't contacted me at all.

I was really hoping that someday, when I wake up in the morning,

someone text me saying that they care for me,

and gives me the strength to face the day.

But, this is just a dream that will never come true.

Again, I'm sorry if I hurt you.

I didn't mean to slow down with you,

but this is the only way that I can think of at the moment.

I'm So Sorry..

Coal Power Plant Lagi

2010-07-24T21:23:00.000-07:00

I've read another article about this coal power plant in Sabah. Based on the EIA report, these are the disadvantages.

*The Malaysian Insider had previously reported that an environmental impact assessment on the proposed power plant stated that its construction stands to raise surrounding sea temperature by four degrees Celcius as well as damaging the livelihoods of local fishermen.

*According to documents made available to The Malaysian Insider, the power plant near Kampung Sinakut, Lahad Datu, will also result in the loss of a traditional seaweed farming area measuring 4km.

How the increase of temperature effect local fishermen? Certain plankton (food for fish) can only live at certain temperature. The increase of temperature "destroy" these plankton, and food for fish is decreasing. After period of time, no. of fish will decrease as a result of food competition.
To all my Sabahan friends, the government is seeking for your opinion as well, but somehow, they will conform with the EIA as well..

* Click here for full article

Sabah Coal Power Plant

2010-07-22T02:29:00.000-07:00

Suddenly I'm thinking of writing something about this Coal Power Plant in Lahad Datu Sabah. I heard that this power plant will produce electricity up to 300MW. Well that is "big" enough to supply electricity to Sabah state I guess.

Some maybe against this, while some agree the proposal of this power plant. If one of you didn't know what is power plant, easy saying, it produce electricity by burning the coal (arang). Correct me if I'm wrong.

As a student in the field of chemistry, I did learned about environmental chemistry and now taking air pollution, I just want to share what is the advantages and disadvantages of this coal power plant.

Me myself staying in the country-side or "kampung" area, and once or twice a week, without failed, we will experience blackout. The establishment of this power plant, a little bit will reduce this problem. Not only that, shopping complexes in Sabah itself are growing faster and I believe that the current power supply can't sustain these development. That's the reason why the government proposed to build a power plant in Lahad Datu. Why LD? I have no idea at all.

But, nowadays, I saw a lot of people disagree about the establishment of this power plant especially the environmentalist I guess. So many negative effect may occur in the future from the establishment of this coal power plant. Carbon dioxide is release from the burning of the coal, and CO2 is a very powerfull greenhouse gases and people near to LD will surely feel the "heat" from this gas. But, this is not the problem, "they" can build more trees, because trees need CO2 for their photosynthesis.

Second disadvantages is that this power plant will surely release sulphur dioxide, which when react with rain, or H2O, will produce H2SO4. What is that my friend?? Yes, its an acid. People there will experience acid rain, and this acid rain can destroy all those trees if the acid is concentrated.

It's enough I guess. Now it's up to the Sabahan whether they want to experience blackout or looking the environment just gone with the wind.. Hehehe.. It's our choice my friend..

In "love" with Food Chem

2010-07-21T23:05:00.000-07:00

I went to class, not to hear (not listen, mind the difference) someone sitting in front of the class, and READING out loud what was written in the slides. But, I'm hoping that someone who sitting in front of the class, to educate me about 5W1H is food chemistry.

Every time I went to this class, I don't feel the sense of learning, instead, sleeping is always on my mind.

I'm not saying that the someone in front of the class is a boring person, but, I just want that someone to give us some ideas of what food chemistry is. It seems that you don't have the spirit to give us the information, and I'm sure you have been in our situation before, and you should know what is on our mind. Didn't you?? Hehe..

I rather not going to class if this will continue for the next 3 months..

bisik-bisik: Attendance must at least 80%..

All in 1

2010-07-20T07:18:00.000-07:00

This goes to someone whose very close to me. It has been sometime since we met and honestly, I miss and love you so much but at the same time, I can't show it to you because there is border between the two of us. We knew it very clear and we can do nothing about it. All that I can do is to keep it and this page is the only place I can say anything about you. (while in fact, I got other, but, I just don't want to tell you)

I knew you few years back, but only less than a year ago we close to each other. I appreciate all that we have shared and done together, and I never knew that I needed you that much everyday in my life. Even though sometimes, you might hurt me, but above all, you still someone in my life.

I hope you know that, everyday in my life, when I wake up in the morning, you're the first one come across my mind, and hoping that you doing great there and happy always and having a great day ahead. Everyday I feel like texting you, asking how about your daily life, just to make sure that you always fine down there. But, when that border comes into my mind, all of sudden, everything stop. What I can do is that, just hoping that you understand, my situation up here. I'm not asking a "reply" from you, it just that I want you to know.

Everything that we shared together will be a memory and I really don't mean to slow down with you, but that border always comes into my mind.. Should I say every seconds? Hoho..

Well, I just want to wish you, all the best in everything that you do, and please don't get me wrong when I didn't text or call you in a single damn day, its just that I'm giving you time with your life and I don't want to disturb you, because I know, I troubled you so much in your life.

I think, thats all for now.. Till we meet again..

bisik-bisik: Missing baby bolster.. Heeee...

Just wait..

2010-07-20T01:42:00.001-07:00

Will post something tonight..

"All In 1"

Final Year Project

2010-07-15T02:37:00.000-07:00

It has been sometime I didn't update my blog. Just met my supervisor and I got my final year project.

"Heavy Metal in Mangrove"

Yes, that's the title of my final year project. The title is quite general but from time to time, my supervisor and me myself will try to narrow it down so that it won't get too complicated at the end of the day.

If anyone of you have the expertise in this field, feel free to share with me. Do drop your comment here and it's best if you have link to shared. :-)

I don't want to talk about love life anymore, since there are more important things that needs to be done rather than concentrating on my love life. Some say, love is a motivation, but sometimes, it kills..

bisik-bisik: Don't want to put hope anymore..

Last time + now + tapi

2010-07-11T23:17:00.000-07:00

Last time, we planned everything mcm dunia ni kita yg pnya. Now, planning hnya tinggal planning. Tapi, saya x kesah pun sbb i learn my lessons.

Last time, ada apa-apa masalah, sy adalah shoulder for you to cry. Now, ko sd ada org lain. Tapi, sy x kesah, asalkan ko bahagia, ok la tu..

Last time, sy x penah tau apa itu sakit ati. Now, sakit hati tu mcm regular customer d kaunter pendaftaran sy. Tapi, itu semua dugaan dan msti diterima seadanya.

Last time, bila teringat pasal ko mcm drugs yg sgt2 satisfied myself. Now, drugs itu membunuh penagih ini. Tapi, sy tahu, yg dtg akan pergi, yg pergi akan terus pergi.

Last time, selera makan membuak2. Now, mo hbskan satu sudu nasi pun susah. Tapi, saya masih sihat dan bersyukur dgn rezeki yg ada.

p/s: dulu berat 79kg, now 70kg, tapi still sama mcm dulu, x penah berubah.

Truth is always ugly

2010-07-01T03:11:00.000-07:00

Yes.. Truth is always ugly..

No matter what happen, we have to face the truth..

Whether you like it or not, there is no other option..

Going back to Arau very soon..

Facing final year as a student..

To leave all those feelings behind, to concentrate with task and to fulfill all my needs and wants..

Love life is no longer important..

What matter is to love yourself and appreciate for what you have everyday..

Simple update

2010-06-06T02:36:00.000-07:00

It has been sometime I didn't update my lovely blog. One single reason, busy with my practical training. Repeating same daily routine is really tiring. Feels like deactivating this blog.. :|

Been tagged..

2010-05-26T15:47:00.000-07:00

Just now I read at my chatbox, Sir Marcello send me message saying:
anda telah di tag!! usha link ini http://hardfever.blogspot.com/2010/05/tagged-first-time-dapat-award.html
What I need to do??
Sebelum menerimanya, aku kena buat beberapa perkara:

Tugasan TAG : Award + Tagged
(a) Buat entri berterima kasih atas award yang diberikan.
(b) Berikan kepada 10 / 20 / 30 orang rakan blog korang.
(c) Beritahu kepada rakan - rakan korang bahawa mereka memenangi Award tersebut.
(d) Ceritakan 7 perkara mengenai diri sendiri.

Thanks to Sir Marcello for the tagged. If i'm not mistaken, this the second time I've been tagged. P/s to Sir Marcello: Cpt2 la ko blk kk.. Hahaha..

7 Perkara Tentang Tuan Empunya Badan

1) BUKANLAH JEJAKA KEGILAAN GADIS SPT YANG DI WAR2KAN OLEH SIR MARCELLO. Di benci ada lah..
2) Suka dgr lagu yang best2 ja.. Yg x best tu, buang jauh2..
3) Orang Sabah
4) Sdg amik kos Kimia guna2..
5) Anak bongsu dari 5 org dan semua telah berkahwin kecuali yang bongsu. Pomot kejap!! Haha..
6) Currently praktikal di JKM.
7) Muka bekedut2 mcm org tua.. Hahaha..

Penerima yang akan menerima award ini adalah:

1) Echa Baek – My besfreng dalam gosip2.. Ahaks..
2) Bella Cinta – My besfreng jugek dalam gosip2.. Haha..
3) Haziq Hisyam – Mat jambu rebutan ceweks2..
4) Seedah – Senior ku yg X ku sangka dia ni blogging juga..
5) En Kaff – Staf kolej yang sgt la spoting..
6) Azhar Andi – Kawan gosip time dip dulu..
7) Jumardi Abu Bakar – Junior yg bagi nasihat mcm org matang..
8) Mat Ed – Bilang saja futsal, dia tetap ON..
9) Abu - Freshie nie..
10) Cak Syazmiey – Calon ANC.. Bangga ngan ko ni geng..

bisik-bisik: Derita merindu itu sebenarnya bahagia..

A book of life

2010-05-23T16:28:00.000-07:00

Lets start new chapter again and again and again. Combine all the chapters and we are going to have a BOOK of us.

bisik-bisik: i miss you so much la.. Haiyaa..

Untitled

2010-05-22T02:01:00.000-07:00

I've been FOOLED. Yes, should I repeat it again? I'VE BEEN FOOLED. Thank you very much for doing this to me. I "appreciate" it so much.

All these while, I trusted my instinct, I know this will happen, but THAT SOMEONE told me not to believe it, so I did.

Last time, that person promise to tell me whatever happened, but today, I found out that someone is lying to me. What is your answer??

"Aq cr time yg ssuai ***.ari khamis ritu kn de smthng yg jd kt kte kn.erm.."

Oh come on.. Don't be fucking stupid person.. You can just fucking tell me directly.. Now that I found out it on my own, then you give that fucking answer? Who do you think am I you can just playing me like that!! I'm a fucking human being also..

You don't have to hide things from me. When you did this way, it hurts me more and more and more and more..

I am very disappointed with you!!! Please leave me alone!! That's all I want from you.

bisik-bisik: Semoga berbahagia!!!

Thank you

2010-05-22T01:03:00.000-07:00

Thank god that I can move forward, leaving yesterday behind, forgetting all the problems and just go forward.

I just go with the flow, and whatever happens, it's already written and I have to face the fate. No one can change fate, but need to face it instead.

I can only plan, but He will decide what's best for me.

bisik-bisik; Being fooled and disappointed.

Datang Lagi

2010-05-17T16:18:00.001-07:00

I can feel that someone is lying to me, all over again. I really have a strong feeling about this. To someone, please tell me the truth. I really need it now.

Deactivated

2010-05-13T16:13:00.000-07:00

Just deactivated my facebook account. Main reason is that, it is not the proper to socialize anymore. Even though most of my friends are there, but personal purposes, it's best for me to temporarily deactivate my account. Okay, forget about it. I'm deactivated!!!

Last monday I have started my practical training and this week is quite tiring, but, hopefully this weekend I should have enough rest. Thanks to my superior Mr Fauzi and Mr Razak.

This week also, too many incidents happened to me. I really don't know whose mistakes, but all that I can do is to just follow my instinct and I asked god to show me the way. He already decided my path in life, and as His follower, I accept everything with an open heart.

bisik-bisik: Everything shoud be fine. Don't worry Be happy.

Done with 4

2010-05-08T05:54:00.000-07:00

Final examination for semester 4 is done. Hope everything is fine. I did my best and now god will do the rest.

Tomorrow will going back to KK, and hopefully I will have a safe journey. godswill.

Next semester my final year will starts. Loads of task needs to be done especially FYP. Title and desire supervisor is the important key to have a great FYP.

Bisik-bisik: Happy mode..

Semua dalam 1

2010-05-04T07:46:00.000-07:00

1. Just watched the video posted by my friend, Norliana Achok entitled "Harapan Tanpa Suara", and sudddenly it came into my mind, why the hell people want to do sex without knowing what responsibility is? They just want to fulfill their needs in sex without further thinking what will happen to the children they will produce? Well, obviously, most of them will throw the baby and somehow, the baby will die. If the baby dies, it's good for him/her though, but what happen if someone save the baby, and do they think what will happen to the baby when they grow up?? Growing up without the love from both of their parents?? Damn!!!

2. During this final exam, my friends and I enjoying ourselves studying in campus, having group discussions and honestly I think this is the best way to study. But, at the same time, I just cant stand some students enjoying themselves with their bf/gf. Well, it's your right to do so, but please do not do all those touching, "ramas-ing" in front of the students that do their revisions. That's not the right place to do so. Huuu..

3. Can't wait to go back to KK. I hardly cant wait to meet my family and friends. I miss them so much, even though at the same time, it's hard for me to leave my friends here. I'm the type of person who cannot live without family and friends right besides me.

4. Practical training is waiting for me, and as I posted before, I do not have the time to rest because right after my final examination on the 8th, and on the 9th I am going back to KK, and then on the 10th, my practical training starts. The coming weekends, then I can have my resting time. Godswill..

bisik-bisik: do not misjudge us.. :)

Outdated

2010-04-29T08:41:00.000-07:00

Sorry to myself for not giving sometime in this my lovely blog. It's just that, I really need time to revise all the subject for my coming final examinations. So far, 3 papers are done (Chemical Technology, Corrosion and Electrochemisty and Carbonyl Chemistry), and I did my best part and let the fate decides what's the outcome.

Only 3 papers are left (Wastewater treatment, Occupational safety & Health and Polymer Chem), and now I'm trying to manage my time properly so that, nothing will be left before sitting the particular paper. The gap between each paper are quite close, so it really needs me to be mentally and physically fit. Godswill.

And now we getting better and better and hoping that our friendships will grow old and stronger through the days. Not seeing each other next semester will not be a barrier for us to share everything, hopefully.

Also, I just can't wait to be back in KK next week. Family reunion, Kaamatan festival, school reunions, local Sabahan foods and "exercising" with friends are waiting for me. Dear friends, wait for me. Be there soon.. Miss you guys so much..

bisik-bisik: Revising revising and revising..

Learning not scoring

2010-04-21T19:52:00.000-07:00

Thanks for the advise from my ex-coordinator when I was in my diploma. Sis Len (Julenah Ag. Nuddin soon to be Dr. Julenah) texted me, "Gud luck frank". She's the one who encouraged me to take this course (Applied Chemistry) because she was alumni for this programme. So, I told her that I am very scared about yesterday paper (Chemical Technology), and she agreed with me. Yes, and I also agreed with Sis Len, chem tech is a dead combination of Mathematics and Chemistry = Chemical Engineering.

Guess what after loads of complaining about this subject, she told me this, "It's all about learning not scoring though scoring is a good bonus". Thanks sis. Appreciate it so much.

Knowing one person (you know who you are) is great experience ever. We know that we just met and in now we are trying to know and understand each other, hoping that we can give our best to each other. It's all about sharing (give and take), and hopefully we're happy together. You told me once that you're happy with me, fyi, same goes to me, I am happy when I'm with you.

bisik-bisik; Corrosion is next.

Exam Exam Exam

2010-04-15T23:00:00.000-07:00

Final exam is just around the corner, yet, laziness is still my bestfriend. My schedule for this final examination is quite packed. Hoping that I can maintained my performance last semester. *finger-cross*

Problem?? No thanks.. You're not invited to come into my life in this very moment. Not before I am ready to face you. Just yet..

Expressed something to someone yesterday and hoping that both of us are happy with all the discussed matters and yes, life must go on.

Just can't wait on this day.. 9th May.. Going back to KK.. whoa.. Can't waittttt!!!

bisik-bisik: hello world.. :)

Peminat Motor Klasik

2010-04-12T08:23:00.000-07:00

Kepada peminat-peminat motor klasik, member kepada member saya ni, minta tolong promote motor klasik dia nie. (pics ada kt bwh nie)

Kalo ada sape2 yang berminat, boleh la kontek sy kat email nie. Nanti saya forward detail member kepada member sy tu.

bisik-bisik: first time post pasal nie..

Laz"y"ness

2010-04-11T19:40:00.000-07:00

Final exam is just around the corner, and honestly this semester, I am so lazy to study. I can feel that this is so not me.

Help needed!!!

Tips2 exam

2010-04-08T19:07:00.000-07:00

1. Jgn buang masa!! Ada org prefer makan sambil study2 kan? Kalo di fikirkan balik, time makan2 tu, tgn akan kotor kan, then akan g washroom, basuh2 tangan, tgk2 kat cermin sambil memberi smgt kepada diri sendiri (~~hensem/cantik juga sy rupanya~~). Dh buang masa skit kan??

2. Fokus!! Facebook, twitter, blog, friendster (~~ada lagi ka org layan benda nie?~~) or apa2 social network la mmg sgt la pemes amos skang ni kan. Dekat2 nk exam nie, rasanya boleh di kurangkan kot naa.. YM n skype leh ON la kot, sbb nk tanya kat kawan2.. x pun, gosip!! hahaha..

3. Stop!! Kepada gamers semua, time ni la korang rehatkan otak and jari2 korang dari arena (~~of stars~~) gaming2 nie. Garena, Dota or apa2 ja la application game kat FB tu, sila2 la stop sekejap ea. Lps exam nie, korang main la game dari ahad sampai la ke ahad, dari pagi sampai la ke pagi, itu korang punya suka. Org x kesah dh kot kan..

4. Bangun awal!! Mcm susah ja bunyi tips nie. Kalo kita kurang disiplin, mmg agak sukar nk bangun pagi.. Alarm dh set, tapi dok tekan button snooze je kan?? Alarm set kul 5 pagi, chup2, bangun kul 7 pagi.. Bukan apa, bangun pagi, otak kita fresh, kalo study, 90%++ leh masuk and melekat dalam sel2 otak tu.. Leh la dpt dekan2 kan..

5. Prioritize!! Kalo boleh la kan, dalam 1 hari, 1 je subjek kita revise. Takut lak becampur baur suma fakta2 and teori2. Tapi ok gak kot kalo dh campoq2 nie. Leh kita wat teori sendiri.. Hohoho..

6. Rehat!! Kalo rasa2 MATA kita tu dh gelong2, berat semacam, baik g rehat2 la ea. Korang paksa study pun, x masuk and x save pun dalam sel2 otak korang. Baik g rehat2, mimpi2 indah then bangun balik, sambung la study. Tapi jgn lak telebih (~~sudah~~) tidoq kan..

7. Sunyi sepi!! Environment paling best best best untuk study ialah tpt yang sunyi sepi. Otak kita releks, and leh accept benda easily. Kalo ada roommate, housemate or jiran2 kita duk melalak, sila la amik plastik beg kaler hitam, sumbat je mulut dorang2 nie, nescaya dorang akan diam, pastu korang akan dapat "hadiah" la kot pastu..

8. Repeatition!! Ni la key untuk success sebenarnya. Bukan repeat paper tapi bila kita dh habis wat notes or exercise, kita repeat lagi wat notes and exercise tu, balik2 kita wat. Kalo x dpt A lagi untuk exam, xtau la kan. Kaya syarikat buat kertas2 tu, sbb dpt student camni. Hahaha..

9. Honey Kiss miss!! Haa.. Jgn pikir bukan2.. Time2 exam camni, elok la amik Madu Asli and Kismis.. Sbbnya, madu and kismis nie, leh kuatkan daya ingatan. Kalo x caya, sila la cuba ea. Mind set tu penting.. Pasni, sesak la kedai macik balang kat mushrum tu, org duk p beli kismis kat dia.. Hahaha..

10. Fluid (~~mechanics~~)!! Yang ni xda kaitan pun dgn subjek chem engine or chem tech. TIme2 macam ni la, kita yang begelar pelajar ni kena amik air yang sangat la banyak. Kalo boleh, g tulis surat kat spritzer nya kilang, minta dia hntr 1 tank mineral water kat depan rumah korang.. Senang, xyah duk p kedai, nnt terbuang lak masa untuk study2..

11. Study group!! So far, mmg x ramai yang apply benda ni dalam kehidupan dorang sbg student. Ya la kan, lain org lain cara study, tp apa salahnya, g study group. Best apa, dari 5 jam study group tu, dalam 2 jam ja la kot study group, lagi 3 jam tu, duk gelak + gosip + makan + minum + gelak + gelak + gelak.. Wei, study group bgs la. Sila la cuba..

rasanya, tu la saja yang dpt di fikirkan di pagi2 yang indah ini.. All the best tuk semua yang ada exam!!

bisik-bisik: ak x apply pun suma kat atas nie.. poyos ja ak kan.. Hahaha..

Decision

2010-04-08T02:27:00.000-07:00

It is really hard to decide and make everyone "puas hati" with your decision. I am just a normal student, the same as the others, but why must me, have the "rights" and the "power", to do the decision.

I really need you guys cooperation to do this decision. You guys never know, how does it feel when, you already decided, but other peoples are arguing with your decision. You guys never think, how hard it is to do the decision, and how painful it is when someone argue your decision. I really don't want to decide, because I know, every decision you made, one will always argue.

I tried to understand you guys, but if you guys don't cooperate, YOU HAVE NO RIGHTS TO ARGUE MY DECISIONS!!!!

bisik-bisik: xmo marah2 lagi la mcm diploma dulu.. semua dh besar la wei.. :|

Luxury restaurant + Love

2010-04-05T22:57:00.000-07:00

I am not promoting but just want to share, this "luxury" restaurant where my friends and I always enjoyed having out breakfast and lunch. For me, the owner is very kind and she didn't care about the income. It is like, she want to sedekah to all. Why I am saying that? Yes, it is very cheap and the way she cooks all the dishes is kampung-style, which I really like the most. The best thing is that, she will give you something as in return. Two days ago, she gave us mango and today, she gave us kuih muih. She's too kind.. Oh btw, this is the luxury restaurant.

Finish with that food.. I like to eat!! Haha.

Right, about love life. I told her that, I don't like to compete with other guy just to have you. Looking at you now, you're happy with your life and with your love one. I just want you to know that, if you're happy, then I am happy for you. And i guess, you are happy with him right. Oh, did I mention, I stalked you everyday?? Haha. Keep on tracking your movement even though sometime I can't track you!! Well, I think, you know who you are. Lalalala.. Love is complicated..

bisik-bisik: Final examination is close.. Phewww..

Contest?

2010-04-03T23:13:00.000-07:00

This is my first time I join a contest. Well, to everyone, you're invited to join this contest. Just click the picture above, and you'll be redirected to the sites, or click here.

bisik-bisik: everything should be fine..

It's April

2010-04-01T18:18:00.000-07:00

This is my first in April. Kinda busy with tests as well as personal problems.

Yesterday was April 1st so called April Fools. I do remembered, I do some kind of pranked to my friends. That day, I want to treat them with KFC. They are having lectures, and they ask me look after their laptops and LCD monitor. Before that, I already bought a box of KFC, and then I texted them, saying that, their laptops and LCD monitors are gone. Oh did I mention, the laptops are newly bought laptop?? When they come to my room, I'm having my short nap, and I give them my super plastics smile. I think, they just want to kill me that time. It's just that, I want to eat KFC while it's hot. Hahaha.. Sorry Gab and Zul.. :)

Anyway, closer to final examinations, problems always come one over another, making it stakes of problem. It's not a big deal for me though. Same goes to my bestfriend, having problem with family. It's normal mate. You cannot expect family members will told you everything about the problem they are facing. Sometimes, they just don't want you to worry, they just want you to concentrate on your study. When the time comes, surely, they will tell you. You go mate..

By the way, just like to promote to everyone, who likes to do charity, my sister is working at Four Season Langkawi, and they are having this charity campaign, and selling T-shirt worth RM30. All the money will go to this orphanage organization. For further inquiries, do contact me through frankysedok@yahoo.com.

bisik-bisik; misses someone..

Back-off

2010-03-31T14:47:00.000-07:00

I think, it's my time to back off. You've showed the sign and give me the hints. I knew this gonna happen, but I don't know, why must I start it at the first place.

I hope, this is the right decision, again.

Bisik-bisik: not again.. Huuu..

Final exam + Industrial training

2010-03-31T02:53:00.000-07:00

Yes.. Final exam is just around the corner, and honestly I am not fully prepared for this coming final exam. Having 6 subjects for final examination, with the gap for each subject is closer, I am hoping so much that I can maintain my previous performance.

What I am scared of is my OSHA (Occupational Safety and Health) final examination. Really-really need to score A for this paper, because at the moment, the demand is very high for this particular field. Even though you need to put some capital at the first stage, but in return, you will gain more in the end. For this paper, you need to memorize everything, from Factories Machineries Act, to OSHA itself. The best thing is that, I only have a day to revise all the terms, acts and provisions, which is sound impossible (~~impossible is nothing = adidas~~). Hopefully, the miracle is there.. (~~crossing finger~~)

After my final examination which is on the 8th of May, my industrial training starts on the 10th of May at Jabatan Kimia Malaysia Sabah (~~credit to Razak~~). That means, on the 9th of May, I need to be in KK. This sounds so physically and mentally fatigue. Right after final examination, you need to do your LI. I understand that I can delay my registration with jabatan kimia, but, I just want to give them a very good first impressions, and also, so that I won't forget all those theories, which may be asked by the science officers and staffs.. Huuu..

My practical training will be finished on the 2nd of July, and I my classes for next semester starts on the 5th. Within those 3 days, I should go back to Arau, Perlis. WOW!!!! Tiredness is coming to my life. I should be fine. I should, I must and I will..

bisik-bisik: next sem start thesis.. Yeahh???

Bestfriend

2010-03-29T08:30:00.000-07:00

How would decide if she/he is your bestfriend? For me, enough with she/he understand me and will be there with and for me in whatever situations I am in. Happy, sad, sick or healthy. It's enough for me to consider you as my best friend.

Whatever it is, thank you to YOU, yes YOU, for being my best friends. I know that I am not perfect, (~~well, nobody is perfect~~), but you still accept me the way I am and so do I, I'll always accept you, the way you are. I like the way where we just being ourselves. :)

bisik-bisik: you've changed my life so much.. Thanks.. :)

Without permission

2010-03-25T23:43:00.000-07:00

First of all, this is just my opinion about what's happening to my close friend at the moment.

Topic sentence: His ex-girlfriend wants him to continue their previous relationship.

My friend:

You should know that, it is not easy for a girl to fall in love with you, because, once they love you, they will love you forever, and once they hate you, you will never get them back. I understand that you do not want any commitment at the moment, but from my view, I think she needs you. Well I also understood that, you think love is "leceh" and all the "karenah" in love, but hey, love is not always happy. All the problems mature us, and we can learn something form it right? My advise is, just follow your instinct and do what you think is right and best for you. No hard feeling k.. :)

To his ex-girlfriend:

I know that both of you have been together for the past 2 years (correct me if I'm wrong), and I'm sure you know him better than I do. Even though I am not the one who he always shared about his life, but as far as i concern, he didn't mean to leave you behind and he's not happy when he left you. It's just that he don't want to be a hypocrite person, giving you a fake love, which soon when you realize, will hurt you. So, he decided, it's best if he stop now, instead of later which will be a misery to you. I understand that, it is not easy for a girl to leave a person that she loves the most, especially when you think that he's the one who can give you happiness. You shouldn't push him. That's not the proper way. Try to understand him more. It'll works. :)

To both of you:

You guys should give some space to each other, to know each other better. Being friend is not a crime, and do not push each other, because you guys will make things worsen. :)

Bisik-bisik: Macam la sy nie bahagia sgt.. :|

Study...

2010-03-24T09:28:00.000-07:00

As far as I concern, after sometime being a student, there are various types/way of studying I've learned and saw. So, which one is yours??

1. 24/7 studying

I have a friend of mine, who never get bored facing the book. He likes to read all sorts of books. Yes, he graduated as a Mechy Engine student and working with a private company. I met him when I was in my secondary school. He's very hardworking person.

2. Genius

This type of people is a gifted person. He/she doesn't need much time to study. He/she can understand terms and easily memorized facts. My ex-roommate when I was in UiTM KK is one of them. He absorbed all the information in the class ONLY. Going back to our room, all he did was, playing games, reading comics, eat and sleep. Before we go to test, he just run through the text book once, and that's it. He the highest!!

3. Just study.

This one I like. I have friend of mine, he and she just study. If you ask him or her, they can't give you the answer straight away. After sometime, then they can give you the answer. But, they can answer any questions that come out in the test or examination. :)

4. Study group

This is the best types of study I think. We can ask our friends when we don't know something. But, please pick your friends properly. Otherwise, it is not a study group then. :)

bisik-bisik: I love my study group.. lalalala.. dudududu..

Stingy?

2010-03-23T15:42:00.000-07:00

Just want to share you all about what happened yesterday.

My lecturer, Mr. Azlan gives back the marks for second test, and mostly did not do well in that test. So, Mr Azlan gives kinda "brain-wash" to us, on how to study carbonyl chemistry.

That is not the problem. The problem is, why on earth he asked me, this questions.

"Franky, how many hours in a week, you spent time to study for this subject?"

I was like, huh?? Honestly, each subject, I only study/revise when the test is coming. Sort of exam oriented right? So, I don't want to tell him that this is the way I studied carbonyl chem.

That is what I answered him. "I am not sure Mr, because I don't really count, how many hours I study on a particular subject"

"Oh, kedekut ilmu eh?" He replied to me. I don't want him to know the way I study carbonyl chem and I don't want him to think that, we take this subject as a small matter. No!! We didn't!!

bisik-bisik: congrats to ecah.. highest tuuww...

Miss Dell

2010-03-21T17:21:00.000-07:00

Oh yeah.. This is the 3rd time I've changed my lappy. From HP to Compaq and now Miss Dell. Bought it online, and thanks to my sister Helena Venugopalan.

She's my lovely + understanding + adorable sister. If I ever had problem, she's the first person I talked to. Even though sometimes, she blame + scold me, but at the end of the day, she'll always support and motivate me. That's so wonderful.

About my Miss Dell, she's so lovely. But, if she's in Green in colour, that would be better. :)

What's my feeling at the moment? Woke up early in the morning, she is the first come across my mind. I am so worried about her. Anything about her. Looking at her picture, her smile, felt so calm. I wonder if she has the same feeling as mine. Huuu...

bisik-bisik: she is not an ordinary person. she is different.

Life goes on

2010-03-20T18:19:00.000-07:00

I thanked God for everything that happened to me. I know, He has planned everything. If this is my destiny, if this is how He want to test me, I accept with an-open heart.

I thanked God for giving me true friends, that's always by my side. In good or bad, in sickness or health, they are always there for me.

I thanked God for giving me a very understanding family members. They let me do mistakes, and they let me learned my lessons. They love me for who I am, they let me choose my own destiny, they let me live my life, just the way that I want it to be.

Thanked God for everything.

bisik-bisik: I don't need those friends.

I cared You..

2010-03-20T05:21:00.000-07:00

I have no idea, if you ever know that I do care about you. Anything about you. Even though, sometimes I ignored you, but I don't mean it.

I hope that you will understand, and give me a positive feedback in return. I know, sometimes you showed positive sign, but, honestly, it is not enough for me to consider it as a positive feedback. Yes, I need more. :)

Talking about today activities, we have Family Day for our course. Even though only some of the students did come, but, I can see that we are enjoying ourselves. I get to know new friends and of course, you knew your course-mates.

Plus, at the same day and place, the accountancy students having their family day as well. Didn't get the chance to know them, but, when I get back home, someone chat with me, she saw me in the family day. Woo.. Tegur la kan.. X salah pun.. :)

bisik-bisik: You catch my breath, when you look me in the eye!!!

Guilty

2010-03-18T08:16:00.000-07:00

Something happen today that made me felt guilty. Maybe that person is joking, but for me, I think that person is serious.

It's hard for me to felt guilty, but this time, it is very different. Emotionally unstable is the main reason.

I am very sorry for what happened today.

bisik-bisik; I've saved your text.. :|

My Friends

2010-03-17T11:35:00.000-07:00

I thanked God for giving me a super understanding persons, so called friends. They are always there for me, when I am in trouble, or in happiness. They always give me support, and teach me how to be a person. I really appreciate their concern about me. They give me hope so that I can move on.

These few days, too many problems coming in, and a normal person like me, really can't stand this. From personal problems to surrounding problems. I would like to thanked to all my friends who always by my side. You know who you are.

Our friendship age is still young, but I do hope that it will become older. The way we met each other is very special. Even though I can't remember the exact place and situation, while you do, I hope it is not the parameter that we can used to evaluate our friendship.

Even though, some of my friends are younger than me, I do respect them, well in returned, they respected me too. I think, although sometimes I can be very childish. (~~anak bongsu la katakan~~).

I also want you all to know that, some people do think negatively about us, but, we shouldn't give a ~~damn~~ to them. We know what we are doing, and we still on the right track.

By the way, to Mat Ed, congratulations on your new blog. Welcome to blogging life. Just remember, it's your blog and you have your right to say about everything. Hehe..

bisik-bisik: I can be rude sometimes..

Expectation killed

2010-03-16T21:52:00.000-07:00

Dear friends,

Do not expect too much from me. I'm just a normal students. Sometimes I can help and work with you guys, and sometimes I can't.

And for your information, I don't "choose hair" (~~pilih bulu~~) in my friendship. But, if you want me to do so, I can. Plus, you're not the one that I have to entertain all the time. You worth 0.0001% in my life. Don't expect that when you asked something, I can surely give 100% in return. Please don't ever do that!! You should have understand that, each persons are different, and in this very moment, we need to give priority which subject needs to be revised first.

I am not angry, but I am just saying. I knew your previous cases, and that's the reason why, people around you taking a safety precaution, not too close with you. You easily back stabbed your friends just because you want to be better than the rest. That is not the proper way mate.

bisik-bisik; I miss my diploma friends.. We share everything.. None like this.. :(

Have you ever really loved a woman??

2010-03-15T17:45:00.000-07:00

To really love a woman
to understand her
you've got to know what deep inside
hear every thought see every dream
and give her wings when she wants to fly
and when you find yourself lying helpless in her arms
You know you really love a woman

When you love a woman
you tell her that she's really woman
When you love a woman
you tell her that she's the one
She needs somebody
to tell her that it's gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really
really, reallly
ever loved a woman?

To really love a woman
to let her hold you
till you know how she needs to be touched
you've gotta breath her
and really taste her
until you can feel her in your blood
when you can see your unborn children in her eyes
You know you really love a woman

When you love a woman
you tell her that she's really woman
When you love a woman
you tell that she's the one
She needs somebody
to tell her that you'll always be together
so tell me have you've ever really,
really, really ever loved a woman?

You've got to give her some faith
hold her tight
a little tenderness
you've gotta treat her right
she will be there foryou
taking good care of you
(you've really gotta love your woman) (yeah)
and when you find yourself lying helpless in her arms
you know you really love a woman

When you love a woman
you tell her that she's really woman
When you love a woman
you tell her that she's the one
She needs somebody
to tell her that it's gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever, really
really, really, ever loved a woman?
Just tell me have you ever really,
really, really, ever loved a woman?
Just tell me have you ever really,
really, really, ever loved a woman?

by,

Byran Adams

Sorry for everything

2010-03-15T09:01:00.000-07:00

I am not sure if you read this.. If you do, I am sorry for everything. You deserved to be loved, but I am not the one who can give you love.

We know our problem, and we cannot do anything about it. Living in this country, we can do nothing. I prefer to have a win-win situation, where both of my family and you are happy. But, in our situation, it's not worth it, if only one side is happy, but the other side is suffering.

It is my mistake to give you hope, but, I am very sorry for that.

I Am Sorry

2010-03-14T01:42:00.000-08:00

Last time I come to your 1st degree registration, instead of be with you all the time, I am with my friends. I AM SORRY, but I thought that you prefer to be with your friends.

Last time, I did promise to you, that I will come and meet you there to give you my notes, instead, I asked my friend to do so, because at the same time, they have their academic visits. I AM SORRY, I've broke my promise.

I never knew that u missed me, because you never show it to me. Hoping that I come down to your place, to meet, instead, I go back to my sisters' house. I AM SORRY, I know I hurt you.

I know that you've been sacrificing everything that you can, hoping that I understand and get the meaning. Instead, I treated you, just like my other friends. I AM SORRY, I didn't mean to do that to you, but how should I start if I knew what's the end.

I Am Sorry..

Tiring week

2010-03-13T21:26:00.000-08:00

Hello all.

This week is very tiring.. Tiring in terms of mental and physical. Two tests really killing me.. Carbonyl and OSHA (occupational safety and health) are two different things but both needs you to memorize and understands all the terms.

I am sorry to all my friends, I didn't manage to go to any of the programs held this week. Kursus Pengurusan Organisasi by MPP and Ceramah Remaja and Cinta by AppChem Association. My bad.. :|

This week also I am mentally overloaded. Personal problem as well as my peers problem. I'm not good listener, but yet I'm still there for my friends.

And next week, our class will be going to Indah Water Bayan Lepas for our academic visit. Kinda excited and at the same time worry because next week, there will be more tests to come. Lecturer are "sprinting" to finish the syllabus and we as the students, need to catch up, or else, we left behind.

bisik-bisik; thanked God for giving me another day..

Ignored

2010-03-12T03:09:00.000-08:00

Have you ever been ignored by someone that you really loved? It is very painful until you can do nothing in your life.

For me, I you don't like someone, you should have told the person, that you don't like him or her. Sounds rude but by doing that, at least that person know and he/she can do something about it. As for me, if I don't like someone, i'll go far far away from that person. Maybe, that person can do the same thing as i did right?

Well, maybe ignorance is kind of "hint" that you don't like a person, but not all people in this world can accept such "hints", because some people might prefer to be told directly to their face.

By the way, I am so tired after 6 hours of laboratory experiment, which actually did not finished yet and need to continue next week. Kinda emotional but I still can control it. :)

bisik-bisik: I wanna what love is.. lalalala..

Happily ever after

2010-03-10T16:54:00.000-08:00

Well, it's kinda weird the past 3 4 days.. Woke up in the morning, and felt so happy. Me myself do not know what is the main reason for this, but i thanked God for giving me another day of my life.

The most important thing is that, I think I've gained back my "spirit", and I can feel it. For sure, people will not believe this, but, I don't give a damn. :)~

Currently, i'm in the situation just like in the poem, "The road not taken". It's hard for me to decide. If u ever heard this song, "Disana menanti, disini menunggu", I am really into that situation.

Hoping and praying that God will show His lights to shine on me, and show me the way. Cheers..

Bisik-bisik: Listening to No More You - Akon.. Lalalala..

Fact vs Opinion

2010-03-07T10:31:00.000-08:00

Fact and opinion are two different things. When someone talks about facts, you cannot argue, by hook or by crook, you need to admit the fact.

Differ from opinion, it is something that you can argue on. Mostly, all of my entries are my own opinion, and one have the rights not to agree with me, but I also have mine, to ignore you.

Some of the bloggers may use such "strong" words to express their feeling, and at the same time, one or two person(s) didn't like it. Yes, some people is not comfortable with those words, but why make things complicated? Don't read it at all. If you like nice words, motivational blog for you I guess.

If you want to express your feelings too, blogspot is waiting for you. Hehe.. Then, we gonna have some kind of table tennis tournament right?? JK.. :)~

Bisik-bisik; Manusia mmg x pernah puas hati.. Hehehe..

You are special

2010-03-06T07:14:00.000-08:00

Everyone are special in anyway. Doesn't matter which background you are from; rich, poor, tall, thin, or fat, you're still special.

If you find yourself useless, think again. Lets say you're rich, there must be something inside you, that you "poor" in, vice versa, if you're poor, there must be something inside you, that you "rich" in.

Everyone have their own fate, so do you. Never underestimates yourself, instead, just think that, you are the one who live your life. If you're happy, it's you yourself that happy, not others. Why go for sadness? Choose happiness!!

bisik-bisik; Happily ever after..

Love is complicated

2010-03-05T09:44:00.000-08:00

I have any idea actually, what should be the title.. Talking about love, it is not wrong to try to express your feeling towards the person that you love. Doesn't matter, whether that person, love you or not in return, as long as you expressed it, for me, it's fine.

This happened to me actually. Well, there is something inside her that I also do not know what, and make me want to know her better.

But, I just go with the flow. If she gives positive response, then it's good, if not, then I'm sure, we're not meant to be together.

Bisik-bisik: Love is complicated. *sigh*

Being single is not a crime

2010-03-02T06:19:00.000-08:00

Recently, some of my friends broke up or clash with their boyfriends and girlfriends, and I would like to tell them that, being single is not a crime. Most of their relationship is around 3 - 5 years.

Their problem are mostly; further to degree level, long distance relationship as well as monkey love :).

Well, for me, these are the excuse of their ex's. If they really love you and want to spend their whole life with you, none of those excuses should ever exist.

If any of these excuse exist, they never love you, and in fact they only use you at the first place because you might have the capital. But, on the other hand, you should have think at the first place, why did they dumped you? You probably did something wrong that might hurt them? Or maybe because they found someone new?

Well for me, again, being single is not a crime. Do think that everything happen for a reason and what goes around comes around.

bisik-bisik: x single, x couple = its complicated.. lalala...